A handful of months ago, I had an opportunity to sign up for a Sound Healing Certification Class I've been wanting to take for a LONG time. Intuitively, I knew that I was needing to take the class, but I wasn't sure I was going to make the time or financial commitment. It was seemingly "out of the blue" (of course I know now it was synchronistic), and even though it was something I'd been wanting to do for several years, every time I thought about taking the class, I got excited, but I also got this pang of fear. Old thought patterns instantly popped up telling me all the reasons I shouldn't do it- "you might suck at it, who are you to be a Sound Healer?, you don't deserve to spend that much money on yourself...." - I'm sure at least some of this sounds familiar.
I had to have an honest conversation with myself about the fear- I mean, is this my gut saying I shouldn't do it? Or is it the ole' ego popping back up and trying to assert control to keep me small?
Since I'm sure you're curious, I did decide to take the class- and ultimately, it was because I’ve practiced my way into becoming a person who recognizes signs and opportunities for what they are. I realized that this was another modality for me to include in my Spiritual Tool Chest to be of service. An opportunity for me to gain confidence to work my Purpose of lifting the vibration & sharing light. (of course, dealing with this fear is a whole different conversation for another time).
Ultimately I decided to take the class because I know that every big leap I've taken in my life has been accompanied by fear- so it's not that the fear doesn't happen, it's just that I've realized that the thing that would cause personal expansion that I am most afraid to do is often the thing that turns out to be what my Soul is most calling me to do (and as I like to say during readings- my next positive steps)... Moving away from home to go to college at 17, moving away from my college town without a plan, facing the ankle breaker, starting a business, leaving a day job of 9 years, moving cross country- all big, scary things-all things I decided to do afraid, and all things that have been great gifts to me and necessary steps on my journey.
So what about the fear? Back to the question: Is that my gut saying I shouldn’t do it? Or is it my ego trying to keep me small? How can I tell the difference between the ego/personality body and my actual Inner Guidance? I think many of us on the Spiritual path have gotten it wrong a time or two (which is always an amazing opportunity for us to learn- I have certainly learned this painfully-lol).
The personality body likes things the way they are. It doesn’t like change. It likes to keep us stuck where we are because it’s a hell of a lot easier to be a victim than it is to claim your power and stand in it- regardless of the consequences or outcomes. The ego/personality body doesn’t like to take any risk because, what if I fail? If I don’t try, I can’t make an ass out of myself if it goes wrong. (sound familiar? lol). The ego will always try to avoid the bumps and bruises.
The ego also remembers the bruises and bumps from past learning opportunities and likes to use fear to keep us from trying again, but the resilience and tenacity that comes along with those bumps and bruises is priceless. Don't get me wrong, this personality body was super useful in the times of saber tooth tigers, right? If it weren't for a good healthy fear of things, we would have all been a bunch of midnight snacks. But our work now is different.
The Intuition, or inner Guidance, Assistance, or whatever you like to call it, is your Higher Self trying to guide you down your path to live your Purpose (we all chose to incarnate with an assignment). I think many of us find that typically, our Intuition is guiding us to do things that propel us forward, help us step into our power, and become the souls in meat suits we came here to be -we forget so much in this density. Being 3D is like living in the Central Valley CA Fog (if you know, you know-lol). Our Inner Guidance is our fog lights- asking us to trust what we can see right in front of us and keep moving forward. Trust that the road is there and it will reveal itself enough for us to keep going.
But what it boils down to, is that it's a different feeling- the frantic fear of the ego versus the calm knowing of the intuition. For most people, it takes practice, really. Everyone has intuition- some may be more naturally inclined than others, but it can absolutely be cultivated. Like with any art, even with a natural inclination, it takes practice to master. And as my personal clients will tell you, mastery comes along with a solid meditation and mindfulness practice. Your intuition is that quiet whisper, that inner knowing, and to be able to hear it, you will want to be able to still your mind. (See where it's all coming full circle?) When you’re in tune with your intuition, it’s much easier to tell what is the ego and what is the intuition. And on the other side, when you practice calling out the ego, you get to know it. As you start to pay attention more to the personality body (ego), it becomes much easier to spot.
Like all of the scary things I've done, this class turned out to be a wonderful experience. Not only have I added "Certified Sound Healer" to the services I offer for myself and others, but I had a wonderful opportunity to step more fully into all that which I truly am- getting closer to my intuition, making friends with my ego and facing it with a loving and understanding eye.
So, if you aren't sure where to start working with your intuition, here's what I'd recommend:
Meditate REGULARLY to quiet the mind
Pay attention to your energy levels around other people
Work with your energy centers to balance your flow (it's easier to be intuitive when you're open and flowing to your highest and best)
Ask yourself questions- then pause to listen & write down the answers
Play guessing games- my fave is to guess which elevator will come first at an elevator bank
Play with oracle cards, pendulums & other tools you're drawn to
Take action on the intuition you receive. When you act on your intuition, you are rewarded with more intuition (and hey, if you get a bump or bruise along the way, that's just as, if not more valuable)
Get enough sleep (it's hard to talk on the phone when the battery is dead-haha)
As you practice and hone your intuition, you will gain more and more trust in your abilities. You will learn to discern between ego and intuition, and you will be richly rewarded.
If you're looking for help with intuition, meditation, working your energy centers & more, I'm now accepting personal healing clients. Let's chat to see if the service I offer would be a good fit for you.
And if you're curious to check out the Sound Healing work I'm doing, be sure you're in our Creative Zenworks Spirit Circle .
Til next time,
Love & Light
-Carly
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